Coming back vs going home

What so special about 5th Dec? 5th Dec year 2007, the last moment and the last day my feet still in Miri.I keep on reminding myself that I will be back to Miri for a yearly vacation or may be to stay put there after my retirement. 2nd July 1995, I stepped in this wonderful land for a very first time and I left on 5th Dec 2007. My first Chung Hua's student and my first batch students...finally my last batch students. Tonight, I asked myself is it anybody there waiting and hoping for my return? Is it anybody there? Some already move to other states or other contries. I already changed my email and phone number. How we going to keep in touch? I am doubt.Even now, I am very confuse. Am I going back to Miri? Where is my own house? Where is my own car? I have nothing there. I am not going back to Miri but it is just a visiting. I am just a visitor! Thank God cause on 5th Dec I will join my secondary school classmates to have a trip to KL to meet up with another old friend of mine. So, 5th Dec will be the day to be remembered...remember of what? Leaving [Miri], coming back [Penang]and going to catch up with my old friends [KL]. Besides that, I am going to meet with my Miri ex-student from Chung Hua and my ex-coursemate [USM]from PJ...pertembungan antara dua zaman. So, until now I still don't know who am I and who I want to be. Is it because of my deepest love to Miri, Sarawak and my church or because of old memories that always hold me back? What should I do? My love to my beloved friends in Miri will never ever fade...no matter what! My life, my heart, I give it to God! This is for sure. Why? Caused get hurt very badly and almost lost myself. By who? No comment caused this person is a creation of God too. So, what is my conclusion? I am not going or coming anywhere. I am a Malaysian. All this way, I never moved or serve in other contries! 5th Dec just another ordinary day and the meanning of this day is filled with God's blessing, protection and His will to glorify His kingdom! Amen!