016-488 Vs 016-871

Still in Chinese new year mood? To me, the most important part and the centre of this occasion is Chinese New Year eve dinner. Sometimes I believed I can forgive and forget so that i can move on and have a new beginning in this new year... sometimes...I remembered that I did manage to do so once before but not in this crucial case. I can't forgive cause I am not ready to allow myself to forget what this person did to me. Sometimes I also wonder why! Why not this time? What so special? I don't know but may be I know. Nobody ever hurt me as much as this yet trapped me with all the guilts alone. I need time and I need God even more to set me free...completely! Once we grap it, too slide chance to let it go. It's like 2 phone numbers, 016-488 and 016-871. I did stop using old handphone number and switch to a new number. Somehow during special occasion, I will activate the old number again. What do I expect thru this old number? Nothing more than juat a memories. This year the sms that i received during Chinese New Year mostly from 016-488-from 04-...am I the forgetten one or been forgotten? Just too hard to terminate 016-871 and forget about 085- but i know somehow this number means nothing anymore. So, I decided to leave it there and terminate by itself when it's out of credit end of this year. i am too tire...anyway...I am not ready to let my memories fade just like that cause I really pour out my deepest love there...I still stand firm in my feet that once I called you my friend, forever I will love you.